Friday, June 19, 2020


any thoughts on this? talk about high concept 80's video... whew! i want to know what was edited out of the design meeting on this one... :)

Wednesday, June 10, 2020

summer bulges....


I've begun a wine collection. Don't laugh or turn your nose up to soon, I don't profess to knowing anything about wine, and these are all grocery store bought. I hardly ever drink wine.  However, every week I decided I would buy a bottle of wine just to have on hand for an occasion, for example like people who bring a bottle when invited somewhere for dinner.  But the real reason is I'm determined to have some people over to my place for dinner and maybe some cards at some point.  So, I've been randomly choosing this or that bottle of wine.  I like sweet wine so I usually look at the Moscato or Riesling. I also prefer white wine so I don't, Chardonnay? the Chloe wine here said Sauvignon blanc? no idea. I bought the rose' wine because I liked the color and bottle. ?  the zinfidel I got on recommendation of a friend who served me something similar red wine. 
Anyway, for the few readers let out there, feel free to recommend anything. I'm not opposed to going to a real wine store either, but the grocery store has been convenient and it's a new thing here in OK to have wine at the stores.   Of course, who knows if I'll ever have anyone over and serve any wine.  In my late 20's and early 30's I would always buy wonderful stuff found on sale at Pottery Barn for the fabulous dinner parties I was sure I would someday throw, and nope never happened. But I have a few boxes of interesting plates and platters and place card holders and chargers, yes lots of chargers ugh!  alas!   But I think these days I could handle a small dinner party and night of cards. :)
  I am chugging along with my summer.  lots and lots of yardwork. I need to blog about singlehandedly moving my shed in the back yard.  I'm in the second week of a summer class that is not too exciting since it's online and a whole new curriculum.  The basic essays are the same but the new course has a "This I Believe" theme for essay one , shared experience, that carries into essay 2 informative, and essay 3 persuasive so that you branch and expand on whatever belief you write about. I refused and stuck to having students write about an ability or strength they have.  I've done that for the last few years and it's always interesting to write about. I think it's positive for the students also.  I would have been more willing to try the Believe thing if I'd been in person teaching the new course , but online I'd rather stick with what I know.  I wasn't really happy with the course documents which are pretty specific to the assignment.  Whereas when the course was presented in training, they said that any prompt is fine as long as we teach the objectives of the course. anyway, blah boring work ramblings..
Let's get back to summer!  less travel this year for everyone. people are out and about in OKC, cases are levelled  here, and people are being careful when out I've noticed. me too.  Happy June, all!

Happy hump day...

Saturday, May 23, 2020

Friday, May 08, 2020

May is here...

i should be grading papers..... that was a photo from Paris trip in 2008. and then there is another photo of a NYC trip in 2013? maybe?
I'm currently sitting on 5 classes of essays, one class of evaluative essays, 3 classes of Rogerian argument, and one of Mythology term papers.  I'll be grading them in that order. I've made not progress this morning at all. Other than grade one paper from the second group above that I'd helped with a few emails and he turned in an okay paper, too short and not enough sources but oh well.  High school kids in my classes sometimes struggle with getting to a college level writing.  I've been making little zoom videos where I record me talking to them like a youtube channel, but then I share the screen and go over each part of their paper. I tell them what to change or correct, or I'll say to make something sound more academic or college level, less vague, make a point, have something to say, etc... and I enjoy the challenge in pushing them forward toward maturity of the mind, and the discipline of focusing on something and having a voice.
students today more and more coming up in a world where everything is just shared by copying and pasting a clip or clicking on an emoji as a response...and here I am saying I want you to say what this means and why and how and use words and language about the topic to do so...
I'm really looking forward to this week and the next being OVER.  a lot of work between now and then but I know that once it's done and grades are in, I'll have time to just work on my yard and/or house. 
I QUIT pursuit of buying the land in AR btw.  I knew the neighbors, the seller, and the realtor, and I asked some friends in the neighborhood who asked around people in town and the architect hired to design a house for the site etc... and after all decided to wait. Now is not the time and I can always find something if I wanted to move up there or buy something later.  In fact, with only 2 or 3 years left on my mortgage, I'l be in a much better position after getting that paid off in the near future anyway. meanwhile I found out i have a credit score of 821, not bad.  I was also walking around my house last Sunday morning and considering all the house repair needed to my house, and updating of the kitchen, and some roof and soffit work needed... I felt God would want me to take care of this investment before reaching out further with that land in AR.  So dreams on hold, and dreams change, so time will tell.
Speaking of my house, i can't wait to take up the berber carpet in the front room here. I live in a small 2 br bungalow. so half the house is the kitchen with a bar between one big open room towards the front door.  I have a table in the middle part near the bar where you walk into the kitchen and then the furniture beyond that. I sit here at my table mostly at the computer facing the front door and living area.  anyway, this whole room, I want to take up the carpet down to the wooden floors underneath. I'm now sure what I'll find, but I suppose I'll just do it and replace/repair whatever I find.  I know there is a wood panel covering a square hole where the heater vent used to be in front of the doorway to the hallway, and then I'm not sure whether or not there used to be a wall in between this dining area and front room? so I'll find that out too. but after 18 years in the house, I need some sort of change before I go another 18 or however many more :).
I'm working out again. since last Friday, every week day this week at 12 noon, the class size is about 5 and we're all apart from each other and wiping everything down before and after use etc etc all precautions.  With less than ten people there we are well in the low range of possibilities of spread.  Nothing is back to normal and I'm still working from home and staying home otherwise. I am so glad to be back on track to keeing in shape. and also it is AWFUL having lost all the muscle and momentum I had going before we left. this week doing pushup and pullups and etc is really arful with this little extra weight around my gut. UGH!! but a few more weeks and I don't think it will kill me so much and I'll be more into a groove hopefully.
it rained last night and turned cool today 50s and 60s. cloudy outside which will keep me indoors and grading papers.  listening to music on youtube. I listen to the alex rainbird channel mixes over and over. This is nto a very meaningful post, but I wanted to catch up with what's going on today anyway. I posted a video about Big Foot on my social media this morning. I posted that it was Conspiracy Friday and stated that I can't belive that youtube allows such lies on the internet! it's meant as a social commentary on the stuff online and being shared or taken down, so boring. the things humans carry on about in disregard of what really matters. in my opinion.
cheers all.

Saturday, April 25, 2020

staying home...

I've not had an easy adjustment.  It seems I need a schedule and things to do and places to go and people to see.  However, I'm just glad to have a job I am able to do from home.  I've been teaching all my classes online since the quarantine began.  took me some time, like everyone, to adjust to not doing normal things.  I'm not very good at being my own boss with some things.  The students have been okay with changes more or less.  They are all doing their work and turning things in, although there are a handful in each class that I'm not hearing anything from at all.  It's understandable, many of our students are just one flat tire away from dropping a course, as they say.
ANYWAY!  life it good and it's spring and we all have a future. The hardest part for all of us is not knowing. Fear of the unknown can be very stressing. Difficulty. 
On Sunday nights, I have a friend who is a therapist in Portland who schedules a "craft night" at 5 pm west coast, 7pm for me.  So there are about 4 o 5 of us who are on zoom and visiting for an hour of so while everyone draw, colors, paints, etc.. it's a nice social time for me once a week.  My only other social time is chit chatting now and then with the neighbor next door or the young couple on the other side of them, we come out onto the porch or driveway when it gets cool enough at night and visit a little.
I continue to see retired colleague B and her husband on Mon and Wed mornings because they still need help getting him from bed into a wheelchair every morning. I wash my hands going in and wear a mask. Her husband is particularly at risk since he's already had pneumonia symptoms and hospital visits before since he lies in a bed when not in his wheelchair. he had a stroke years ago and also suffers from scoliosis and something else. I am not going to the grocery store on Sunday morning any more like I used to, instead I drop by a store on the south side of town on my way home from B's in the morning.
I miss teaching in person, but I've filled it in with zoom vidoes. twice a week I make them on the day we would have had class and post them online for students.  I've been using different backgrounds which is fun.  I found some online that are the living rooms of Harry Potter, Ron, Dumbledore, and Voldemort if they had a home in 2020, ? something like that...  and then I have some others where I searched masculine living room or conservatory or eames or modern etc..
I really really really miss the gym.  I've kept up my monthly payments because I like the idea of keeping up support of them.  They email workouts daily. 3 of them that you can watch on youtube and do with them from home. but I have no discipline for that. so I've been running a mile every other day or so , not really making any use of the dumbbells and stretch band I brought home. boo hoo.  I think OK is letting gyms open up next week, which will be interesting to see whether my crossfit gym will open or not. I think they plan to mark off a square for each person and have us all separated? with masks? dunno...
I've been slammed with working from home. I can not get a BREAK on having something to grade online, once I get one thing done there is another thing coming in. I have 6 classes now. I think what takes so long is waiting for a screen to save and click through to the next thing to grade. paper is faster.  but also it's because I'm writing a lot of feedback to each student because I can't see them in class to mention this or that to.  There are students who have sent thankful emails when I recorded a personal video just for them and shared their draft on my screen.  that is effective because they've all had better papers for it.
I have become relaxed on getting to bed and getting up on time.  10 to 630?  instead of my usual 9 to 5ish am. ugh!  I sit around working online, take breaks going outside to walk around my yard , very distracting, and then work more. and it seems like I'm just waiting for the next meal. blah.  I have been playing piano every night around 8pm, just to relax and wind down a bit before bed.
There is a property for sale in my college town that I am thinking about purchasing. a sort of land investment.  I dunno if I want to or should, I'm taking a week to think about it. I called the bank Thursday and applied for a loan, and it turns out I can get 100% financing 5.09 rate for the first 5 years of 15.  But it would mean tightening up how I live and spend. alas. an extra $300 a month hmmm.  The land is 44k and i'm going to offer 38k IF I decided to go for it.  I've always wanted to invest in land, and if I ever moved back to AR I'd already have a little plot right there in the middle of town.  It's in a highly desirable part of the old part of town, BUT it's a unique piece of land.  say, you driving through a residential area and there are nice old and new homes some 2 story some only one. lots of trees , and you come to a cross street that you can turn east on, but west of the street is a driveway. that's my property. I share the drive way with the house on the south and north of it. which both face east.  The property on the south of that drive is a friend of mine they own their land all the way back to the ravine which goes down to a creek.  the house on the south, they own half the land. my plot would be the land behind their property that goes back to the ravine.  well maybe that makes sense. it's .36 acres but include half the driveway all the way back .515.    I'm completely 50/50 on it. with only 3 or more years left on my mortgage in OK, it seems I'd be able to pay off the land in AR much sooner than the length of the loan.  just an idea. I may feel life completely forgetting about it come next weekend :P
What else has been going on with me.  I forget if I mentioned it but I put my shed outside up on cinderblocks a couple weeks ago. the next step is to get some wheels underneath it and move it to the back corner of my backyard.  I have a lot of plans to install some flower beds once it's moved.  I also want to consider how to build the green house out there that I've been saving old wood frame windows for.  I also have a new interest in building a small chicken coop in the backyard.  I have a lot of ideas and plans.  This is what happens when I'm stuck at home all the time I suppose.
stay safe everyone. It's about time for me to call in a pizza for pickup. my Saturday treat. :)

Friday, April 24, 2020

Monday, April 13, 2020

still got it....

this had me feeling so nostalgic last night. I listened to it 5 times. It put me in the mood to tell everyone, hey be someone's hero this week. world needs faith hope and love right...

makes me cry every time....

Saturday, April 04, 2020

in for the long haul....

after spring break, I've been busy as all get out getting transitioned to all my 6 classes online. and I put off 5 classes of essays during spring break. which now I'm grading online. and I'm tempted to get out in the yard since I'm home now all the time. and I'm not happy at all about gym closed. I have no motivation at home.  I am aware that I am blessed to even have a job that keeps me employed and working. but I'll get to blogging soon there is light at the end of my tunnel and I'll start doing laundry again..etc. ;)

Saturday, March 14, 2020

moving toward spring, caution....

There was never any reaction to post about the letter I wrote to my parents. I'm not sure if I ever mentioned it, but when I had Christmas Eve with them for dinner I thought it might come up. They never brought it up to discuss so I suppose they understand the situation and that's that. whatever. they're so old, perhaps it's easier not to have ring it over the coals at this point anyway.
Happy Saturday, everyone!  I am officially on Spring Break!! and it's raining so no great wonderful outdoor yard work today, alas! :)  I did go to the gym this morning at 9am. so that is 2 weeks in a row going 6 days a week. whoah.  This last week was all about checking our weight max. I had a max of 225 pounds deadlift, 225 pounds squat, and 3 reps benchpress 165. oh brother, this bird legged 6'.25" at 185 man is doing what I can to stay healthy but glad to see I'm improving a bit of strength while I'm at it.
Thursday, during my 3 classes, I began the first ten minutes wearing surgical work gloves, the clear plastic kind that stop at the wrist. I keep a box handy at homes for dealing with poison ivy or painting etc..   well, anyway, I wore them for the first few minutes of each of my classes.  The first two classes just sort of had some awkward murmuring and the 3rd class, a guy asked me if I was working at Subway Sandwich later... ha.   I took them off and used it to begin a conversation about the looming virus outbreak.  Because we'd just finished writing and turning in a rhetorical analysis, I spoke to them about how we fear what we don't know, and how the media sometimes misuses appeal to pathos. I encouraged them that we'd been learning to depend more on logos and ethos, and to find good sources from experts to learn about keeping healthy and warding off the virus while they can.  I also tried to get them to turn up their young carefree lives up a notch into "zone yellow" and follow through on the good advice of washing hands and avoiding public places for a while.  
My campus actually is not returning after Spring Break, they are having classes online for 2 weeks.  I'm not to optimistic that we will return to classes after that 2 weeks is over, BUT I will keep planning ahead and take each day as it comes at this point.   have 5 classes of papers to grade this weekend and spring break.  one online mythology class and 4 comp classes.  I also hope to get a lot of inside house projects done while on break, since I can't work outdoors on the days its raining. :)
This last MOnday morning, I was eating breakfast and youtube recommended a new Demi Levato song, I watched the video and thought the song and video were over produced, also I wasn't impressed with her using F@(& throughout the song either. instead I rewatched her grammy performance a few time, cried, fed the fish and left for work.  after bed each night this week I've been reading Dickens'  "A Christmas Carol" and finished I think Thursday morning ( I read a bit when I wake up too.)  So again I found myself crying at the part where he is looking back on himself in the past and his girlfriend is breaking up with him, and then I found myself reading again the next night a part which is not in a lot of the movie versions, he is shown his past girlfriend's house in the present and she has beautiful children all over and her husband comes home and is swarmed by them with love and he mentions "I saw your old friend Scrooge" and how unhappy he looked working away. how sad.  the last part which was a happy cry is the ending where he's so excited to not have missed Christmas and is spreading his generosity and enjoying his new self and surprising his nephew who had invited him to dinner.  Such a great little read!  I had bought a souvenir copy when I visited the Charles Dickens museum in London over break and hadn't ever finished reading it.
I"m working on motivating myself to evolve.  that is sort of my "word" for 2020 I've decided.  sometimes I get the feeling that I'm just sitting around waiting to die. I've actually had that attitude for a couple of years now, you  may have sensed it.  and I came to a conclusion a few months ago how ridiculous I've been and instead I should just move forward and create what I want the next many years to be for me in my life.  Having lived in the house 18 years has me motivated to get rid of stuff I've had packed or crammed away and never got to for that one project or event that never came, or something I was hoping to share with the children I never had etc etc... that's my new mindset hopefully which will help me move forward.  the carpet I've been wanting to pull up in this old house and get to the wooden floors, the DIY handy work tiled counter tops in my kitchen by previous ownder that I want replace with charcoal grey granite like product, the walls painted. removing some shelves on one wall.  a new sink in the kitchen.  all these things so that I'm not just living with the same ole old house stuff in here.  get rid of junk and clutter all around!
I'm also making decisions about friendships. I'm trying to guage whether and which friend I should back away from.  I'm still in search a social group I feel comfortable in. I'm not sure how, but I don't think it's too late.  I still and will always have my close OKC friend/s and my AR friend/s of course.  I want to read more, be online LESS, and maybe even get to know the real people in my neighborhood a bit more.  perhaps the next month or so with everyone being right at home will see more neighbors communicating?  maybe more kids will learn card games?  Netflix will HAVE to add some things to watch, come one.  there is bound to be a pregnancy rate increase.  
And I'm also going to be concerned about every time my parents leave their house and anyone that comes to visit them. Just because they are older :) .  If you haven't watched the Joe Rogan interview with the disease expert Osterholm, seek that out and get the best info out there on the virus.

depeche mode....

Saturday, March 07, 2020