Saturday, July 16, 2011

hotties out on the weekend...

definitely picks up at the water park on weekends, more likely to have hot groups of guys out there, big guys with gf's or kids and dads, I dunno but during the week there seems more like teenager kids and families and I guess you notice the fat people more.. I'm glad the weekend brings all muscles and bulges in the right places. the ladies too much better shape, I'll admit I still notice a great pair in a bikini and some you just can't help notice , whoah. Does that mean I want to be with those women? does it mean I want to be with every one of those hot guys? probably not. some guys I just notice the body I never had in highschool/college, or the macho charm and ease I wanted at that age, maybe even now. ha... so is it that I want to look like those guys or really interested in getting naked with 'em.. and what does it prove exactly anyway if I could have 'em.
though guys wearing gym shorts as a swim suit still remains a caveat.. wah wah..ghetto.
well anyhow, I"m making it through summer and the over 100 temps since June feels like. I only have 2 weekends left before school starts back up here Aug 2nd.I'm going to be so ready for fall break and have been thinking about some sort of travel plans, I"d love nothing more than to return to Barcelona, but was thinking I should go somewhere I haven't been before. I am considering also Thailand, but my teacher friends just moved there a month ago and may not be ready for visitors first year first semester.
Randy Roberts Potts, gay grandson of tv evangelist Oral Roberts, speaks this morning at a Unitarian church it Tulsa. read the TUlsaWOrld article or check the church link here.I had planned on attending both services, but after the unplanned trip up to AR and back to see my bud's new baby, I didn't get papers done and have to work this afternoon and thought I'd better not try to do all the driving back and forth. THE GREAT THING is that the services are streamed on the net so I can tune in after church for the 11:30. woot woot! go Randy, his blog is linked at the right----> VOules VOus..
I've been thinking a lot lately about me ever getting married or not, and as usual comparing would I want to be with a guy or girl. I was wondering if I'd miss never having a "mom" around again if I didn't marry a girl. you know there is one thing about a guy/girl chemistry with the sort of nurturing you get from a girl and then the sort of protector/provider the guy kicks in with. I'm not saying that's completely true across the line for everyone, just an idea of pairing up for the rest of my life that I always found attractive. I know a lot of divorced gay guys that said they never could continue with it or completely regretted it (other than kids) etc etc, but since I already sort of tried everything I wanted to with guys and have had my fun, I think I could handle getting married to a girl if I were in love. ON the other hand if I were truly in love with some guy, maybe it would also work, but doesn't that mean it would eventually end up with one of us wanting to go all the way with sex.. 'cause that doesn't interest me much, and I hate to think we'd get bored doing everything else that eventually we'd want to because on this end of it, I'm just not into it.
I think it's great for guys who can full out pair up with a guy and be happy as a lark, and if guys need to be that raging top or power bottom guy and that fulfills them like nothing else, great go for it. and for guys who are two peas in a pod and feel like the fulfill that husband wife role OR are fine with the husband/husband roles also great great. I guess I grew up with too many sisters I sometimes feel like I need a bit of women's input in my life. I know I have a lot of issues on the whole thing, but remember that as black and white as you think straight and gay are, and if people are born with it or not etc.. there is definitely a scale of sexuality out there. I know too many gay guys that have slept with women, lesbians that sleep with men, and straight guys that have tried a thing or two etc.. big freaking deal. Just not ready to put myself in any box just yet.
there are definitely some guys that can't jump into that box soon enough. I dunno if the femininity comes naturally with some gay guys or if they decide they can act that way just to put on a big show for the world to KNOW THEY ARE GAY. probably it's natural for some, others I dunno. for example how normal some guy acts around his family or certain friends, and then around others is flaming away. what's up with that... I believe it's the same as guys who act super macho in front of the dudes or at a bar compared to normal with family or friends at home etcc.
ok sociology discussion over. have a good SUnday everyone.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

wild man indeed.... ha

hello Arkansas

I'm in Arkansas seeing my best buddy from college j who just had a baby boy on Monday. they already have 2 girls so I was super excited about his son... woot. After teaching class Wed I hit the Baby Gap store at the mall and bought tons of stuff 0-3, 3-6 and 6-12 months outfits for a baby boy. I hope to be the best uncle ever.. (right up until if I ever had my own kids which may not be likely on the gay road). In fact I drove up here last night and surprised them at the door, hello let's see the baby. :)
they also just moved into a new house a week and a half ago. I brought 3 or 4 rugs that I had from Affghinnstan and not using in my small place for them to use in their house and they were excited for that as well. The new house is in an old central part of town and the old house burned down so the builder made this one craftsman style to fit the street. it's awesome with a wrap around porch to one side, everything square lead paned windows and solid wood stuff all inside etc... great house! it's on a cement outling with a metal beam running under the house for support and some sort of black stuff on the ground under neath as a vapor barrier. so they got the old style they wanted but all new parts. they been living in the same rented 2 bedroom apr for 9 years! fixed rent! so you know the builder was happy to see 'em go ha. he also owned their apts btw.
great time seeing them, came over to my other married friends house to stay the night and talked forever with the wife (who I grew up with in OKC same church etc) and she and I go way way back and she knows everything about my homosexuality ventures. we discussed tons as always whether I could marry a girl and if not how to find a guy etc etc... although think she'd rather set me up with a girl blah blah.
her husband mentioned how he's going to one of our best friend's wedding this next weekend and that no one of the groom's party (are clique from college) really approved etc... but ahh well. the whole gang is showing up and most likely the groom's privates will be all marked up in black sharpie marker. (this is something going back to one someones birthday in college and then carried on to weddings as payback etc so sort of a tradition. ha) I wanted to go but can't make it back from a wedding on a Sunday in Indiana and teach class on a MOnday.
this morning I ran around town dong errands with my friend and his two girls, now about to have lunch with a fellow college ENglish major who happens to be in town while I am. so cool. and the rest of the day just try to see what friends in town I can, and later hang out some with the ex gf who lives in town. etc.. is really great to get away while I had a few days off from the water park.
hope all are having a great summer so far!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Monday, July 11, 2011

out coming out, i wanna let you know...

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nothing but respect for these guys and wish I could give each one a big ole HUG!

dan recap...

excellent weekend... saw a movie with my local pal S on Friday night, Horrible Bosses. It has a LOT of cursing but it's done very tongue and cheek for the humor only. the characters are very well acted, good to see Jason Bateman getting so much screen time lately. and Jennifer Aniston has an ok role in it, but most of the movie is about the 3 main guys going through a sort of Nine to Five meets Hangover plot - great parts done by all the big actors showing up in the film too. SO although I never would have gone to see this movie at the theater by choice, it was my bud's choice of movie and I'm glad I saw it. very well written and edited film. btw I saw Larry Crowne while in AUstin and that too is a really great comedy film. not too over the top and not trying to hard. just a good classic simple script carried out and acted well. I also liked the humor of the younger students befriending the TOm Hanks character. ha. Yes, we went by the BRepublic store before the movie and the dark haired hottie Isaac was not working.... ahhhh. but I did find a very very cool button up plaid shirt I think I might have to have for "back to school" clothes this fall. I didn't buy it so we'll see if I can budget it in or not.
Saturday I worked around the house picking up and laundry and watering blah blah and then worked at the water park and again on Sunday afternoon evening.
I try to keep pretty upbeat and positive on here but I want to gripe about something at the water park. THere was this 14 year old kid maybe a year younger or older, i dunno, but anyway, he had tattoos on his chest and back. I'm not being stuck up or anything and I like some tattoos on people and mostly I don't usually like most tattoos on people (I have a theory that it's a sort of prerequisite to work at WHole FOods in Austin...) but anyway I think some young kid like that is WAY TOO YOUNG to have a tattoo. I know it's legal in OK now, great great. and I know he probably had to have his parents' permission etc.. ok ok. but still can you really know what you want to have permanently on your body at that age for the rest of your life. I have the same gripe about another kid I saw, seriously younger than 14 with two of those ridiculous stupid gauge earings, no offense if you have those or anything and have decided the only way to express your unique individuality to the world s by stretching out your earlobes with larger and much larger circles...., they're just not for me. again I think that is too young of an age to decide to disfigure your appearance for the rest of your life (other than operations and sewing back the skin etc etc.. .ugh). ok gripe sessions over...
I went to my stock club meeting tonight. Everyone wants to buy more Sandridge stock, thinking it could double in value. I may or may not do that this week. One member wanted to buy Devon Energy stock but the club already owns Chesapeake stock and that's like the same thing. anyway, we decided to sit on the funds this week and wait til after the govnt debt ceiling thing is over with. oh yeah we also talked about living in a value added tax system but how it would take away power from the govt. ok enough of boring stock talk.
hope all are having a good start to the week. in the hundreds all week here and I'm grading papers most of the week that were turned in this morning. my class's 3rd essay. only one more to go.
I'm going to AR in a few days to visit my best buddy there (the one I went to IOWA with a while back) ,he just had his 3rd kid, his first son. so I'm super excited (and super jealous) to meet th elittle baby and congratulate them and see 'em etc etc. plus they just moved into a new house a few weeks ago ( would've been up there to help them move in with my pickup but it was the same weekend I went to Austin). I'm going to be super "uncle" to my buddy's new baby boy! :) I can't wait to see a cutie little kid as goodlooking as my bud, only hopefully he'll grow up a little more socially confident than his dad, ha! The very first thing I'll do is swoop up his 4 year old or 2 year old daughter and give them all the attention first thing so that they still feel loved and not let the baby get all the attention, after they are thouroughly tired of me, and I've chatted up the mom and dad all I can, then I'll get to the little baby. :)
PS. I was talking to the dept head at my comm college job today after class on the way out and talking about checking out for jobs in DC just because it was a big city in a similar climate zone as OKC.. and she made the remark that it'd be sad to lose "one of her best adjunct professors"... man I was smiling all the way home to hear it -- and was repeating our conversation inside my head a little, asking myself if I listened enough during the conversation or did I just talk talk talk... ughh. ha, just motivates me all the more to maybe get back into grad school and pursue fulltime teaching higher ed in my future... :P

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Sunday, July 10, 2011