lately I've been really thinking about this question from one of my favorite movies "I Heart Huckabees"....
How am I not myself?
I know it sounds pretty weird but there is a point in the movie where this guy is having a nervous breakdown and I remember driving home from the movie and thinking about that question and applying in all different aspects to my life.
so lately here in kabul, I've become a little more friendly and outgoing which is my normal self, but ya know i hold back because of the usual runaround of wondering if guys think I'm gay, or if I'm suposed to be talking to strangers etc...
anyway, so I'm talking to more people lately thinking, who the heck cares, I'm just going to relax and say hello and hi, and at the gym i'm using my spanish to converse a bit with the italians. ha
thing is, i don't like any of the other teachers on staff here, and there is only so much i can say in conversations with the us military guys here, for example the whole table started talking about unloading rounds at the gate and the policy changes needed etc...... blah
did i mention the gym, two days ago, again!, I was changing my shoes out front in the entry way and this twink french soldier, cute cute face, small skinny body but all worked out and tight, well he changes after is workout and sure enough is standing there in front of me in his bikini briefs with his skinny boy huge package right there. oh man, the euros not shy I'm tellin' ya. ha
btw I met the other guy on base, we had traded dick pics which was awkward because although he was all hot built and everything, he wasn't really my type type to hang with or be friends with. sort of like the guy you would do a one time anon deal with, but not the guy for seeing everyday and stuff after messing around. I wasn't interested and so didn't go with the physical either... however! it is good to know another dude on base, and we can chat and all that about ohter dudes on base, so that is cool.
hope all had a great weekend..