Saturday, January 09, 2016

see this movie, see this movie, see this movie.............


saw this film tonight and it's quality stuff!!!

oh zach..............


I'm sure there'll be all sort of "daddy" references on tumblr once this film hits. sorry about all the language in the clip, but this is the one with the highlights at 1:50, and 2:20 that I wanted to share. I won't see the film what with the recreational drug use included in the film. but the beefcake though! :P

gun show.........


Friday, January 08, 2016

busy week.......

I started back teaching classes Monday this week. it's an intercession class where students come for 4.5 hours every day and get a full semester's credit for a class in 2 weeks. it's my first time, but I'm finding that I kind of love it since I have a go go go style of doing things.  plus I only have 9 students. I'm lucky that my Dean let the class make with that low number.  So basically each day is like 1.6 weeks' worth of classes.  they they turned in essay one on Tuesday, and essay 2 today. ha we're halfway done!
the actual semester begins the week after next on the 18th. I'm excited to get back to my daily schedule of teaching classes and gym time afterwards.  I have a reunion coming up this spring that will keep me motivated and going to gym daily... all my classes are full. next week during plan time after my morning class, I hope to get my resume updated and write out my philosophy on teaching and how I integrate Christianity into the classroom (I'm applying at a Christian college for a better paying job, I'm not qualified because they ask for a doctorate, but at least I'll get my name on their radar even if I'm not called in for an interview).  can't hurt to try!
although I have considered if I should be working at a Christian school. what with keeping up this soft porn blog about my somewhat closet single gay Christian life.  considering the college I currently work out wouldn't care a hill of beans about a professor's sexuality etc... but it's a state school with really awful funding, which is the case for everything in OK of course with oil so low. alas!
When I consider my faith, I always wonder why I'm not in it 100%, like if that's something that is keeping me from pursuing an all out homosexual sex life and relationship, then I really should be.  And then I think what if I'm just another self hating gay guy that can't stand being labeled as gay and everything society at the time I grew up said that implies about a man.  And so am I using my faith as a crutch to keep from having to come out to myself, comfortable enough to say well I'm not supposed to live a gay lifestyle according to my faith so of course I wouldnt' allow myself to be that guy...
nah, I really dont' believe that's what it is, but I had to consider.  I think I've just always considered that one should be defined by their faith first and foremost and that I never felt like I'd have much of a Christian witness if I were completely out and living with a man in that sort of relationship way. it's a lot to think about. living the way I do, I have to consider would I be any happier dating someone versus single.  I made a little point while at my sister's last week, a sort of passive aggressive statement since my sis had mentioned something a month before about it's still not too late for me to possibly get married and find a wife (!??!?!?!?). so I was making some sort of conversation and telling her and my bro in law how there was a lot more in the bible about living your life as Christian witness to others than there is about a man finding a wife, yet that's all fellow Christians thought was going to make your life complete, getting married!  I've entertained views of the church before as just one giant cult of getting everyone married and having sex and having kids. ha well anyway, that's more custom and social norms in the world which I think the bible has less to say about than about living one's life in general taking care of others and spreading the gospel. just my 2 cents.
but dont' think I'm some strange bah humbug person when it comes to relationships. I'm happiest with people and I'm a complete romantic sentimentalist at heart.  It's the growing up closet that has me trained to put on the "butch" non emotion in face of real feelings. feelings that might cause me to regret this or question that.
it's a great start to the new year! btw i swam laps each day this week and got 4 days to the gym. I missed Wed because of a dentist appointment check up.  Tuesady a friend came through town and stayed the night while on his way to Austin for a conference. he'll be back through Sunday night.
have a good weekend all!

talent!.......