he's a tall rounded up in shape type body dark haired white skinned nice eyebrowed sort of dude. I've seen him only once in the locker rooms changing after a swim and it was hanging hung. whoah.
he's totally straight kid though, but I can still admire the guy, heck. He noticed it was time to get ot the pool after a while and shook my hand and said bye etc...
funny thing there is this gay friend of mine at my gym, who saw us talking from across the floor and on my way out he made eye contact rolling his eyes at me.. ha ha. so funny. whatever.
today no one was up at the gym, Fridays always slow, I mainly just did cardio, stretched and abs.
planning to swim laps tomorrow morning, my goal is to get as many mornings in as possible before school starts back up and my summer is OVER.
I got some nice dinner plans tomorrow with buddy S and his bf in town from AR. I wish I could find 4 or 5 other guys like buddy S. He's the nicest good ole small town boy, totally masculine and normal and like a guy you'd want as a brother. man if I could find a group of guys like that to hang out with for some outdoor activities all summer. would be nice. that reminds me I need to find a friend with a boat!! ha j/k hope everyone's having a good summer weekend. cheers for all the comments last post.
I had lunch with a girl I used to work with, back when I started this blog actually. anyway she said that if I'm still single it was for lack of trying or lack of wanting a relationship. yup, she knows me pretty well. although of course, she was thinking what girls she could set me up with. So yeah I'm probably all psychologically messed up, being gay but not wanting to go all the way with a guy, but liking everything else....and then of course the whole faith thing. I'm not majorly in the closet, I mean most of my closest friends from college all know, and I'm sure my family MUST have figured it out by now. although my little sis still says she's praying for a wife. My mom used the word "companion" once.. that was weird. ha but I don't necessarily think I'd live my life any differently... as a public school teacher, I'd never come out at work most likely, say what you want, I'm not up for it with a bunch of stinking 9th graders to deal with! Now at the college job I could care less, but I don't know why it'd even come up, let them think what they want.... ha.
I just expect most people to like me for me regardless, and at this point its sort of just asexual me. BLAH.