Saturday, May 22, 2010

Thursday, May 20, 2010

this week flew by....

well my first whole week off and I got a couple sub jobs, yesterday and tomorrow at my old high school. I can't even imagine what it might be like subbing the last day of school. finals are mon and tues next week. but I'm subbing for a coach so I'm pretty sure the class will be under control and all that... plus I was getting bored at home this week, there's only so many applications to fill out for teaching jobs around here and then there's lunch and the yard, and the gym etc... man I was so bored today I actually folded clothes and put them away.. ha, I confess sometimes I'm living out of the clean clothes laundry basket without ever putting them away.
back and shoulder day today, the "rock" guy was there, he's a policeman in okc and was talking about his beautiful new black car getting PELTED by hail, the sides, windows, corners where there'd just be no way to fix other replace everything, also the rain damaged interior where he had suede and leather seating. ha ha. there were a few of us regular guys in there today and it's always better when a conversation starts and we get to the hello how you doing stage, instead of everyone not looking at each other and blindly just working out.. well it helps that about 2 or 4 of us in there today didn't have on headphones. you know, joining the real world! ha. I'd left mine at home in the wrong backpack blah blah.
oh mr. "rock" what a big guy, seriously I don't even want to sleep with the guy, I think I have a hero worhsip thing for some guys since I was such a skinny beanpole growing up. I was thinking about that today, how when I get to know a guy I'm less likely to be interested, I went through the whole anonymous guy thing for a while. messing around was for me like picking up a game of basketball, just some extra fun. ha
man I got some pics and video from this guy I saw last fall. I think I've mentioned him before the Marine super super hung ethnic native american guy. he's got this really large thick piece. it's crazy, anyway, I'm more excited seeing him go at it manually in the clip, but I haven't been much interested in seeing the guy since he's all TOP stud and he knows I"m not interested in anything more than messing around. well in the past anyway.
someone commented about me learning to love my sexuality. well I do love my sexuality, my body, what makes me feel good, who I choose to mess with, on the sly or directly etc... I probably never should have mentioned the whole "back into the closet" thing ,, poor choice of words. I guess that's what you call it when you're not telling everyone you know who you're sleeping with, or if you're sleeping with something besides the opposite sex. but I don't know, I think I've tried to express before that I'm pretty much with the theory of everyone is plain ole sexual, hetero- hom0- bi- a- etc.. and even if I werent' a Christian I'd feel the same way, I"m not trying to deny anything based on my Faith, It's just what makes sense to me, guys are really really sexual. ha anyway, sorry for the rambling on.... good spring weekend coming up everybody, get out there!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

OUTCAST AUSTIN...

Have you been keeping up with the podcasts of KOOP public radio show out of Austin, TX? you can subscribe for free. check out the OUTCAST website here for any information, shows also stream live on the web from KOOP radio website.
last week featured blogger from "Joe. My. God". and tonight was lesbian comedian Suzanne Westenhoefer. check it out..

locker room fun...

Monday, May 17, 2010

monday missive....

the shoulder is feeling better more or less, I'm not doing pullups comfortably just yet. today was chest day and I moved up to 65lbs for barbell bench press.. woot woot. only 3 sets of 8 but it's a start and a move forward.
the guy that I complained about before who wears sunglasses on the gym floor was there today, but instead had just regular wire frames on, and actually looked sort of guy next door hot...he's got a great build and clark kent features and build. ha I am off for the next 2 weeks before summer term starts, so my plan is swimlaps every morning before breakfast, starting tomorrow..we'll see if I get up and make it. While at the gym this evening I was thinking how I want to go back into the closet a little further, that's just how I'm feeling. I don't even know if that's what I mean, but I really have been wanting to procreate lately, my own flesh and blood stamp on the world...of course as I was thinking this, I noticed this guy come in to workout and said to myself "there's my baby's little brother..." my baby, being the half Mexican/Irish guy that looks like the Rock who I've talked about before.. ha ha. so yeah I"m getting nowhere quick. I haven't messed around with dudes since last September or October, not sure when it was, but I haven't been wanting to "hook-up" or anything lately at all. I guess I've done pretty much everything I've wanted to try with dudes, since the last few over here just really want to F&$K!! you know I"ve mentioned that's not my style with dudes...just never been interested or hard for that at all. what a conundrum. I was watching this movie called "Bullets Over Broadway" last weekend. It's typical Woody Allen, the script is the sort that if you've seen enough of his movies you start to notice all the same habits fitting into place through the film, certain returned-to jokes, situaions, nostalgia for NYC etc... if you have seen it, Dianne Weast does an awesome job. well anyway, I was watching the end where the playwright just wants to go back to Pittsburgh admitting he's love with his wife after all etc etc etc.. and it just makes me remember how much I want someone by my side, walking along, in the car, sitting at home, waking up in bed.. a woman's opinion and view on things once in a while...blah
hey, check out this video of the hail that came through OKC yesterday, it doesn't really get crazy until 1:15 and then it's as if they just pour out of the sky. WHOAH. check it....

good ole b. weber...

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Being Boring


well I'm not able to embed the player so here's the link to Pet Shop Boys' "Being Boring" video....this song gets me feeling so dreamy and nostalgic and hopeful in a way...always loved this video, It's so Bruce Weber directed gay friendly early 90's etc.....i guess growing up in okc I always imagined what else was going on out in the world big cities and parties and lives like this going on somewhere... ha
I also have always liked the idea of never being boring or bored.... I think I pretty much try to live like that...