good post up on Justin in Chicago's blog about poppers. Overall, people are free to do as they please when it comes to the bedroom more or less, but I completely agree with him on the turn-off of a guy saying, mind if use poppers. Somewhere along the line, I told myself that if I ever needed something besides my mind and body to enjoy sex, then I was trying way too hard and should probably give it a break. ha
SO that includes poppers, cock rings, all other drugs, toys etc etc etc... I mean seriously you keep pushing the limits then where are you going to stop. It's cool if you don't agree and perhaps going to the extreme. no prob, just not for me.
Another blogger at a popular dude's secret life, is worth checking out if you haven't read his latest posts lately. The guy is having a difficult time with the idea of his parents getting divorced and the stability at home coming apart. He mentioned some things about having feelings of suicide before, but lately just feeling down and wondering of why go on living when his trials of meeting guys doesn't really get him anywhere etc etc.
The dude is in NYC I think this summer, so he just needs to get OUT to clubs and bars and gee whiz anywhere, he's bound to meet normal gay guys around and do some actualy dating without having meet up for hook ups as an only way to meet a guy. Of course I'm in OKC so what do I know.
I will say that I often have the exact same feelings of why go on with life, and what's the point, and I feel like God might as well take me now. I mean not that often, but the idea has come to me before (and I would never and could never end my life myself, my faith definitely sustains me in knowing I'm here for a reason) . Usually I don't let myself go down that train of thought, like how I'll never have kids, never get married, and what's the point of getting older if you dont' have your own children to train and raise and pass on every part of your experience in the world onto. so that you can pass on the better part of that world so as only to improve the experience of your own kids. etc etc. ( blah blah to those who say adopt, that's a wealthy gay man's road as I see it)
I can't complain too much about being single, since I haven't fully accepted myself as gay and come out to my family about it. So pretty much the fact that I'm alone and not meeting anyone is my own fault and only I'm to blame. I know I know...ha
anyway, check out the blogs either the links or on the right......