just got back from Arkansas. woke up feeling like crap the last two mornings though. a cold in my throat and a deep deeper voice than usual... growl. sucks.
but the holiday party at my ex-gf was cool, and I met some new friends of hers in town and saw a lot of my old college buddies there(all married) so that was cool.
now I'm back at the house surrounded by boxes needing to be unpacked tomorrow.
I decided friday while driving up to my old college town that I don't think I'll be going up there to visit much anymore, it's just not the same, and my best friend has a kid and a second on the way, and things just aren't the same and I feel like I'm just going to keep being the single guy visiting and stopping in every couple months to visit everyone. something about being gone a year has me considering all the old habits and routines and what are they worth to me in life and why I do them... so going up there is one thing I've decided i can do without.
my Austin bud is dating a guy who is his first real bf material in many years and he's been calling me every other night telling me all about their times together. makes me a little jealous for sure. but I'm super happy for him of course and can't wait to meet the guy, he's an artist just moved back to austin from NYC.
I need something like that for sure, I'm getting antsy and extremely bored back here in okc. I'm all right, I decided I'm sort of getting adjusted and still processing where I"ve been and what I was doing, and what I want to do next. I'm still considering a job fair in February for international schools. and if i haven't already griped about it, all the stuff from storage is getting on my nerves and I'm deciding to throw some of it away since I'm single and problaby never getting married and never passing anything on to anyone i figure why bother keeping anything really anyway? now to bed and try to sleep off this COLD!