Wednesday, January 30, 2008

when a friend is a porn star.............

i came across a video online last week, and there was an old friend, C, getting f=ed by and sucking down 2 hot bigger dudes, no protection. he looked strange. by that i mean, he's very very cute in the face, but he smaller and younger looking than he should be. obviously drugs.
he lives in NYC now, in fact he was the guy who i took to see the broadway show with me when i was there last Feburary. He used to live with/date my buddy in Austin for many years.
and i remember him as the brightest hottest college kid I'd met, masculine river boy from Nahlins and so in love with my bud in austin.
they were both hot and great for each other, too good for each other because both knew no boundaries to sexual adventure.
at the time I thought it so perfect they shared a house and lived together as bf. But i come to find, out years later after the break up that the relationship was "open", they slept around, did drugs, like to have 3 and 4 ways, took drugs and let men have their way with them. all these things.
(not that there's anything wrong with that, uhhh, those of you who can't get off without pushing every single sexual limit possible)
but it certainly wasn't what I was thinking of at the time of being gay and monogamous with another man.
Austin buddy told me years ago that C had moved to NYC and was in fact doing porn. but I'd never seen him online in any clips anywhere. and my bud told me that's because he's in fisting videos and swallowing videos and I said, oh. (I've never understood fisting at all either and definitely would not have ever seen any of those videos or plan to)
so i DID see him this week, and I jsut wanted to post that it felt really strange, to see a guy I know naked and just going at it. and also sad because I know he's on drugs a lot, and now doing all this porn where he is swallowing and getting f-ed bare. at first he's sucking them both and I wasn't sure if i was impressed, jealous, or what. ha but by the end after they've had their way with him, I thought, well I guess he made some money for more drugs or whatever.
sort of sad. also by the way, my buddy in Austin emiled today and is going back to rehab, he has been in recovery for about 2 years, and used again. I'm beginning a letter writing crusade from here on out.

other news, I'm shaving the beard today and getting a short haircut. I received some advice from a military buddy in Germany who gets LOTS of "str8" boy German cock there constantly (he says get drinking buddies at str8 bars and hook up! forget the gay bars there).
anyway, he said just keep making eye contact at the gym. not much to go on but I will try.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I know how you feel about seeing someone you know in porn. I came across photos of my best friend's nephew. This is a kid that I've watched grow up and now that he's 18, it was a total shock to see what he'd been up during his first year away at school. I'm still unsure if I should ever tell my best friend about what he's been up to.

Mike said...

That would be... interesting... like you had higher expectations for that person and can't believe they sunk that low. My 2nd cousin is a porn star and has her own website going, pics, pics all over her myspace of her tied up and in bondage scenes... it is disturbing and I really feel sad when I see this because she had so much potential.

JUSTIN said...

I hope your friend turns things around, seems like a sad lifestyle.

K said...

I'd flip if I ever saw a friend in porn. That is so weird...not particularly wrong, just really weird.