Saturday, May 19, 2007
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
anyway, this post is about college is out and summer has started for the college boys. I mention this because today at the gym, ah yeah.
a return of this one blond guy who worked out there during highschool and then last summer after his college freshman year, and now he's back this summer and man that guy has kept in shape. also at the pool this morning a new guy swimming before me, and some other muscled up younger guy changing getting ready to swim after I was done swimming and in the lockeroom getting dressed. good morning indeed summer.
I'm hitting the pool and gym religiously the next two weeks since deciding to vacation a little in TX Mem. weekend.
nothing more to post other than a school secretary telling me today that she didn't see me ever getting married and having kids. We were talkikng about her sons in the military, and how I'd like it if my kids did the military thing and how of course it must be difficult. and then she said well you got to find a wife first, but you're too picky. yeah it's true for guys and gals I've always been pretty selfishly picky. with guys I've always been attracted to the most non-assumed gay type guys (I'm closet, so go figure), and then I've always gone for the girls not to skinny but not at all fat, jsut right and with a very pretty face and definitley I am a breast man all the way. my sisters are all knockouts so I sort always compare to them for bringing anyone into the family.
OF course at the rate I'm going in looking and considering some dick action, I don't see that likely to happen either, like the secretary said, it's scary though, that she'd say that after I was just considering it last weekend. dang it all.
Monday, May 14, 2007
someone give me an opinion on these dudes trying on each other's underwear....gay or straight or does it matter... ha. it is cool they are comfortable with each other obviously. Chad and Gunner... nothing better than the guy next door types. eh ( these guys HAVE to be in OKlahoma somewhere, the way chad talks and says "y'all"....my guess is up near TUlsa or some satellite city of Tulsa... you never know....)
I always feel a bit of despair on holidays including Mother's day, when I began to fret about never having a family or children. I guess it has to do with each year passing and I have yet to spread forth my seed and reproduce some offspring. I just feel it a manly duty, no matter what you want to say about gay guys adopting. or anyone adopting for that matter.
I think I have grown up with so much love in my big family I could wait to reproduce that love but in my own way, with my own rules and policies and huge amount of love and support thrown around. I'm sure I probably have all sort of wild crazy ideas about raising kids. but mostly they are pretty traditional and conservative. I know I'd like to take my kids with me everywhere and spend any time available with them just teaching them and encouraing them to learn and have interest in things and an amount of respect for other people. all that good stuff. Not to mention I've always been extremely curious what they'd look like, their mannerisms, which parts would be like me or their mom, who would get along or who wouldn't. ANd then most guys probably have that science experiment type theory of how to raise a kid to be a genious. ha.
You'd be suprised how many great all around smart kids have parents who are teachers. maybe not but I feel like I'm always meeting some great driven smart person who is really successful and making a LOT more than teachers who had teachers as parents.... well maybe I'm just dreaming since I am a teacher. so anyway, that was me last weekend jsut wishing I had kids again. like when I mowed the lawn and sat down on the porch to look at it, and thought, hmm now if I had a wife to bring me some ice tea, or some kids to throw the ball back and forth with on this nice lawn.
And I'm definitely veril and able. My "catch cloth" can attest to that. anyone else keep something handy near the bedside to clean up after pleasing yourself at night? jsut wondering. in college all the guys in my house called it a catch cloth. although I've heard guys also say cum rag.
Perhaps someone has heard or used some other term you'd like to share as a comment.
I've heard from the archtitect student in AUSTIN, JT. he wrote an email about advice for falling for someone pretty hard who he thinks is gay but has no ideas, and lately is thinkingt maybe he isnt'. Yeah I know it sounds confusing but he's closet like me so go figure. Of course it sucks a little hearing he's fallen for some guy but then again I'm in OKC so no big deal, and he's def worth keeping as a friend anyway. damn hot, I was sort of thinking JT is so damn hot that if the guy hasn't made a move by now, he may not be gay. he he.
I'm loving the weather here in OKC lately. lot's of rain and cool sunny days around 70-80.
there's this one senior boy that had on a t-shirt and grey sweat pants and was walking towards me outdoors on my way to the cafeteria ( our high school is more like a college campus with seperate buildings) well anyway, there he was in all his glory bulging and oh man, this kid had round shoulders and nice legs, and I noticed and then just looked straight forward and thought, dang, he's GOT to be aware of that the little stinker. He could be 18 by now but i have a policy of not checking out any girl or guy student at my school and going there.. uh uh. The coaches that work in my building are another story though, this one guy who is HUGE and has these bulging biceps and seat of his pants, quiet small town guy doesnt' say much. History teacher of course ( and the worse, the typical read a chpater, do a worksheet type...) and used to play college f ball for OSU. damn fine. and I try and play it cool and never talk to the guy, but when I do, it's hard not to jsut stare at this guy. He's the type that I know if I ever said anything he'd blush immediately, maybe before punching me out. he he. he's younger only taught 3 years and has no gut, just big and built but not over muslced out or anything....hmm
btw I hit legs tonight at gym and am taking glutamine tabs again and plan to swim daily and eat eggs for breakfast every morning. this is all in prep for AUstin, you'd be surprised what you can do in just 2 weeks, If nothing else I'll feel a little sexier and confident once I get back to that town!