Friday, February 09, 2007

speaking of chests.....











VOLVER

oh man........Penelope Cruz. I've always been a breast man, ( ok, guys and girls) and she's all woman I got to say it. I just saw the movie "Volver". It's pretty dang good movie. mainly all women in the film, classic Almodovar.

brazilian dudes..











Thursday, February 08, 2007

NPR today about transgender....

I respect it, without understanding it all, and I'm ok with that. anyway, today on NPR they had a conversation with a doctor who was once a man and is now a woman, and has a new book out.
anyway, it was interesting to hear the interview in that I was thinking the voice sort of sounded like a high pitched male voice, but this person had been female since way back in the 70's. sort of a pioneer and hero to other transgender people. (And there is a whole interesting post in itself out there somewhere about what is the right way to use and refer to people using transexual, transgender opposed to "sexchange" etc..) he was practicing in NY, and after changing to a woman, moved to California to sort of "start over" life as a woman. She started playing tennis again (having always been athletic growing up and exceptionlly good at tennis) and after being made to enter more and more competitions, after winning a big tournament, she was recognized and "all hell broke loose" so to speak. suddenly something she never meant to reveal, turned her into a symbol and hero for others, as she had to decide whether to fight for the right to compete as a woman.
You could tell she was extremely well-liked and respected as a doctor by all the calls that came in from people who were former patients when he was a man or afterwards as a woman. They discussed the challenges she faced when frist going through the process and how it compares today to what's available for support and all that.
BUT the most interesting comment that got me thinking was when a caller in Scottsdale who is a man who had changed from being a woman, called in and mentioned how she was involved in a local controversy and taking a stand for transgenders to be allowed access to some bar in Scottsdale, and she mentioned how most people, herself included, wanted to go on living unremarked. In other words, living life as the man he chose to be and not revealing right out that he was a transgender patient. And how the doctor had also planned to live a life unremarked until the whole tennis scandal. I began thinking of living "in the closet" and how that compared to living a life "unremarked" for a transgender, sort of choosing a sort of lifestyle without having to publicly state or take stand on homosexuality. not much of a comparison but still it made me think. ( and again no doubt there could be a whole other post on the psychology of transgender when considering nature vs nurture on homosexutality etc etc) I also thought with a sort of admiration for these people who could be so certain in making that step and decision to change completely to a new lifestyle, and that's not unlike the admiration I feel having read blogs over the years of guys coming out, matt from debriefing the boy, or Down underpants in Aus, or Micificus, etc etc many others. I take little steps off now and then but I'm still pretty much on the fence...

anyway, interesting topic, not just on transgender, but I thought in particular about this one personal testimony and her effect on all the others as a sort of role model and hero. ... and just yesterday all about the snickers controversy. what's really been getting boring is all the coverage on the Scooter Libby trial, the damn daily play by play, I could really care less jsut let me know when its over what happened PLEASE, Its nothing more that MEDIA-LAWYER-ANTIBush PORN, we get enough of that in any other news story.
why not tell me something about the genocide in DARFUR for a change, or what if any policy changes are going on with protecting are borders or convicting those who break the hiring laws in this country, what about USA beating Mexico in Soccer last night?, or how purchasing Citgo gasoline supports Chavez in Venezuela, or the rights of the majority lower working class in China while the rich get richer and laws are broken habitually by a corrupt government. stuff like that.

rope climbing.......

french rugby.....

I'm not always completely relaxed with guys.....

I was emailing last night about the Utah guy and I thought I'd share a little here on my blog. For one thing the guy was a great kisser, he really got into getting as much tongue as possible in my mouth or mine in his... He was also really into sucking on my tongue, and he'd moan a little when I ran my tongue up against his teeth. it was pretty hot, and we weren't getting each other all soppy wet so it was actually just right. made some more noise when I sucked on his earlobe a little and slowly breathed some air out my nose into his ear. anyway, the point of this post is to talk about how it takes me a while to get comfortable with guys sometimes. THis guy was bascially pretty damn hot so I was definitely into it, but sometimes I feel like I'm not being aggressive as I should be, maybe it's normal. Anyway, I have to remember not to just lay back and enjoy it someitmes, ha! well one thing I've noticed that I do with guys that I'm realy really into and getting really comfrotable with is I'll start to maneuver an arm, or his head, or start trying to roll him over by grabbing a shoulder. sort of wrestling dominance thing, i don't know. Also when i'm laying on top and grinding down into a guy, I like to grab from the side under the mattress and pull myself down really tight into the guy. we had a good time. it turns out he has a live in bf for six years that he moved here to OKlahoma with and they quit having sex about a year ago so they had to open up the relationship a while back. whatever that means. ahh well fun while it lasted, and he may call again, we'll see.
BTW this was not the same blond guy from Utah who is in Law school, that's another guy at my gym, he's 26 and just happened to also be from Utah, weird huh.... he has yet to call me.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

living alone..........

I can be about as messy as I want until someone is coming over. I currently have an ad on roomates.com hoping to find some hot masc guy who is cool with a straight or gay roomate ( you can list it on the ad) anyway I'd jsut like the extra $300 a month I could make on rent, but is it worth having to keep stuff all cleaned up, plus getting all the junk out or the extra room. well for the right guy, definitley YES. that way I could quit having conversations with the wall, tv, shower, kitchen, mirror etc... when I had a roomate a few years ago, I actually had guys come over now and then when he was gone, and I couldn't wait to live alone again. and then when I didi live alone again I had practically NO ONE over for a long time. it was funny to have the freedom and then less desire to even "hook up".
I probably killed a lot less time checking out porn when I had a roomate. over all, because I grew up in a family of 7 , and then in college I lived my last two years with 4 other guys in our house. I just really like the option of havning company around. On the other hand, I do like the freedom of having a plac eto my own if I do meet some guy, and I like turning on the music anytime of the day as loud as aI want, or tv etc.. so they are both with pros and cons really

NYC trip.................

i ran for 30 min today and then stretched and did abs etc... having a really nice chill time at work tonight. just been catching up some computer work here and reading this "time out" guide book. I plan to hit all the suggestions of places I've gotten so far for NYC. thanks tons to everybody givng me ideas. I am thinking Saturday I might try this walking tour they have in the guidebook stats at empire state bldng, east to macy's then south to the gargae on 25th, then east to broadway, and then down broadway to union square, then over to fifth hour and then down south to greenwich village for some shopping, it ends at merchant house museum. but honestly I'll havc efun just walking around anywhere once I get into town. oh yeah and my show is 2pm on Saturday, so if my Florida buddy doesn't commit by Saturday I may be hitting up one of you guys in NY to see the show with me since I got two tickets waiting at the box office I can't exactly sell one of 'em on ebay. ahh well.

guy on the right........

Monday, February 05, 2007

so cool...




these were on ebay starting bid at $1200. anh too rich for my blood, but they do look cool, I think....

saved some money,,,, ah yeah

I don't know if anyone remembers the $899 bill I got for scratching up a rental car last fall..... well anyway, I was going to have to learn a hard lesson and pay 399 of that and hopefully get $500 from my Visa platinum. The GOOD news is today I found out they are paying $692 of the bill. SWEET, I guess I'll be recomending VISA Platinum from now on to just about anybody, especially if you're going to rent a car!!! ahh yeah, now I'm only out $207, which still really sucks, but it could have been so much more money just down the drain. Man I was glad to find that out.
busy day today, I worked ou tmy arms and chest after school, got them all pumped up and then came to work here tonight. I'm glad there is no bad weather yet predicted for this week. clear roads and get me back to earning some $$$ for NYC trip.
I wanted to ask anyone out there in NYC or if you've been. I have decided to check out the bars in chelsea, and then saturday I'll walk around greenwich I guess and check it all out. Fridays are never big nights out in OKC, but I suppose friday or saturday nights should be packed at any bar there , after all it IS NYC right? I noticed my Time Out guidebook mentions a lot fo the bars don't take credit so I guess I'll be taking out cash only. What should I do just take $100 cash with me, should that be enough to for door fees and drinks. I'm not a heavy drinker at all anyway, but I figured I might need cab money, unless the subway still runs late night. I'm staying near broadway and 38th street at the Americana, so I wasn't sure if it was safe to just walk home from the bars. guess I'll find out soon enough, 3 weeks and counting.....















Sunday, February 04, 2007

show boys











great sunday afternoon

utah cowboy came a calling......had a message on the phone when I got back lunch with my parents today and the utah guy from my gym had called, he was down south of okc checking out some quarter horses, anyway so he stopped by my place when he got back to the city.......2pm to 4:30.. left just in time for me to get out and get some food before the superbowl game. and what a sweet game it was, ahh yeah. I'm watching the end of the movie Old School, and I got to tell ya there is something about Luke Wilson that just gets me like nothing else. Ever since that movie Homefries, and then I also really liked him in Royal Tenebaums. Anyway very cool movie.
hope that guy, RO, will call again soon. I work two jobs during the week so weekend really only social time for me.
This girl at my night job, jsut out of highschool and improving her math scores so she can get into the beautician classes, well she told me she was a lesbian a couple weeks ago. It was right before going home on a Thursday when class was over at 9 and she was talking about this blind date, and i was wishing her luck and starting talking about how hopefully he was a cool guy etc etc, and she says, "well I'm a lesbian and my date is with a girl". "Oh, ok" i said, "in that case I have no idea what to tell you...." She kind of said something along the lines of " I mean , are you gay?" and I acted like I didn't hear and kept talking about her blind date and wishing her luck and just laughed it off. Sorry girl but wasn't quite ready to come out at work or a random new student. But cool for her she's willing to tell me all about it. She did tell me that she's the feminine one so the other girl played dominant and would pay for the meal... news to me.
I think she heard me talking on the phone the other day about my trip to NYC and what bars to go to and all that, I prolly just should have said, yeah, but it caught me completely off guard.