There is something I've noticed in all the international military guys this week that seems maybe a little different than guys in the states. But I think most of this has something to do with dealing wtih all the closet feelings of feeling less macho because of gay stereotypes etc etc.
anyway, I was thinking about how when I look into the eyes of these guys I don't feel like I'm being immediately evaluated or judged on which side of the fence I'm on when it comes to sex.
is that to say, that with American guys I feel like they are constantly trying to label me straight or gay, and does this society indeed deman that we choose and identify as one or the other.
And I was thinking do I feel comfortable with that, or am I afraid that I lose some sort of respect or "in" with the guys or trust or put into a different club...etc. Well of course it shouldnt' be that way and most likely is isn't, those are just thoughts and feeling inside I've considered .
But there is something in the eyes of these international men I'm working with this week, that seems open and honest and direct and non judgemental. They seem to see me as a person and a man first. If that makes any sense. so real. I'm not sure yet what I want to to call it, but it is something that the all around american good ole guy has, that really great guy everyone likes and he's confident and nice and sincere etc, or what the salesman learns to fake. something like that.
I'm enjoying my day getting to knwo the students and practice teaching them, and the more you treat them as equal the more they are just as friendly. we met all the Afghan students yesterday and they were completely nice and freindly and motivating to us.