maybe not if you are able to go out and meet guys and have lots of freedom to live your double lives seperately etc... and I have done that.
but lately I'm sort of not doing either. I haven't been to clubs all summer, when I'm at the gym I leave promptly after workout and quick shower, and bascially I'm proud to say no online "dates" since I've had the roomie. which is a good thing really.
but I guess I'm ready to see what I can change this fall to get a little romance back into my life. At this point I'm ready to date a girl or guy. serious.
As a Christian, it remains extremely challenging. I mean I'm not in any great conflict or turmoil or anything. I still love my job, family, life etc... but I find Roman's Chapter 1 very convincing, untenable, and clearly stated. There is note in my bible mentioning whether homosexual desire is natural or nurtured, it doesn't really matter when considering that God's message isn't exactly one of living our lives giving in freely to desire. So those are just some thoughts.
Have I ever mentioned how sentimental I am. How I love corny group outings and parties. or that how love being a part of a group or team or project. about a sort of "hero worship" for guys bigger than me in highschool, and even now bigger taller guys. (OU's number 19! yowza)
There is a part of me that wants to be the big strong rock solid male taking care of and loving a beautiful loving sexy hot smart woman. but another part likes the idea of getting a big strong man's arms wrapped around me and falling asleep etc etc etc...
This post is not really going anywhere, I'm just getting stuff out of my brain tonight.