is the eventual question, "so what do you like to do?"
I don't know if that's because I am taking too long to get off or what. Or maybe the guy just wants to see how far I'd be interested in taking it. Or maybe they sense I'm happy just doing "everything but" and get bored with it. But still it seems pretty mechanichal to me and only emphasizes the fact in my mind that it is, in fact, just that, physical machanics only no real interest, thoughts, feelings, care, etc for anything more about me, just the body. And yeah, we guys ARE like that. But sometimes just going through the motions kind of bothers me, no matter how hot the guy. It's really weird and I don't even know why I'm bothering actually meeting up and undressing and etc with a guy. anyway, the brazilian guy in NYC friday night. We discussed going somewhere to make out in private, and had all sorts of fun making out, eventually both undressed and jo and oral. and that was great until he asked "so what else you like to do"..... The Utah guy said the same thing at my place. Well basically I figure that means; so you top or bottom?
I guess I'm just screwed up with wanting everything sort of just naturally paced out and romantic and not just wham bam and thankyou. I guess that's what keeps me from coming out altogether, having everyone assuming I'm having anal sex, when in reality even if I did come out, I still don't think I'd be interested. And I don't need any blog comments from salesmen tops saying, "you just haven't been with the right guy etc...."
actually there is some truth to that, I mean if I had the best friend ever that we both wanted to go further with what we did and slow and little by little get to going at it, I guess I would be interested to try and get into more, just letting go etc.... I can see maybe it'd be different. getting guys is just too easy, it's getting the exact right quality of guy not just into the sex that has proven most difficult. and getting girls is not too hard either but one thing I'll say about NYC they look SO MUCH hotter there and less FAT. sorry any OKC women reading this which I doubt.
I have this bud RR in Dallas, the one I went and saw new years weekend. He has been seeing this guy who HOT looking like a freaking model. they have become friends, slept over and just cuddled, and like little by little taking baby steps towards anything sexual. I think that's pretty cool.
oh yeah and I sent my ex-gf a postcard from NYC. long story. but all the couples I saw walking around NYC just made me want to be there with her seeing everything together and having a grand old time like the good old days.(its been 3 years and 2 months, 1 day.....dont even get me started....)
for some reason I seem to get so excited about the hunt but not the killing when I'm out checking around for dudes.
sorry , what a lame post, but where else am i going to share these thoughts. I'm actually still feeling great about last weekend, just today I was thinking about how right now, so many people walking and walking up and down those streets i was on in NYC, just never stops! so cool.
I ironed my new shirts from NY last night while watching the ocsars that I taped SUnday since I was on a plane. and this mornig I wore one of them to work.
I've decided I currentlly have zero interest in guys here in OKC. Which really is not a bad thing, it's when you quit looking sometimes that the best situations find you! ha.
someone anonymous comment if there is anyone who gets hot thinking of stroking it up with another nice dick and some oral and make out, but has no interest in going all the way with a dude. .....anyone?
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I'm all about hot romance with a guy. I get fired UP by touching, being touched, hugging and cuddling, kissing, mutual jo, and oral. But anal? Like you, it would have to be with a special guy that I trusted completely. Because to me, anal (top or bottom) is total surrender of one's self to another . . . and that scares me!
I just don't find anal sex all that, well, sexy. Not turned on by it except in very rare cases. Fortunately my bf feels the same way. Doesn't make you a freak or anything; just another color of the rainbow.
SWEET,thanks tons for the comments. really good to hear. later.
I think that exactly what you said is the answer... "only emphasizes the fact in my mind that it is, in fact, just that, physical machanics only no real interest"... I think like me, you just need to meet the right person... maybe someone in the same case... not out, but cares about you, is interested in taking it slow. I think that is the reason I have such a hard time getting into a relationship/meeting people is that I really want a relationship, I don't want just a one night thing... I need to feel a connection to the person, a lot of that I think is because of my situation I've told you about with college. Another problem I know for sure is a lack of guys in my area... if I were in Hollywood/LA the story would be different, but there a lot of the guys are real feminene and that's just not my thing.
I think anal is overrated, but I think for me I'd do it after I was with someone I trusted.
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