a fellow blogger recently mentioned his bf leaving the country for a while, and how much they'd miss each other etc... anyway, got me to thinking, how can I possibly find me a bf in this town stuck in the midwest. Well since I'm in the closet and all, I don't guess I've ever really had a "boy friend" or even considered having one. I sort have always wished for that perfect scenario that it seems like all the closet cases online are looking for, a regular bud to hook up with and even hang out with all the time, as long as they act masculine and no one would suspect one or the other is gay. ( heaven forbid!). well that may or may not be true, but really I think a guy who just has goals in life and is a very cool smart masculine gay dude, sure, but is secure enough in life that being gay is a part of his life, and not the focus of his life. For example, the guys who go out to bars constantly and are contantly looking for the next guy to hook up with etc.. and their whole world is stuck in the gay community only. Not that there is anything wrong with that, but I feel it could be limiting, and especially in okc where the community is small. On the other hand I realize that if I participated a little more in the gay community I would be meeting more guys besides the ones that only go to bars.
I have a friend in Austin I visit now and then, and he used to meet all sorts of guys down there, there is a huge social scene with tons of different gay circles and he is still meeting gay guys for the first time from that town after living there several years. how cool is that.( Of course he meets plenty UT boys also from online, also SHWWET, he he) the place is more relaxed and always tons of events and activities to do etc down there.
I've met one guy in TX and one in FL that I think I could actually "date" or go steady with or whatever, I guess I'm trying to say, have as a bf. I guess I've just never thought it'd be a reality to have one. I grew up raised that a guy and girl should wait til marraige, and then sleep only with each other. I think I have a lot of romantid ideas that if I were going to give my heart to some guy I'd expect the same.