Wednesday, September 20, 2017
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Thursday, September 14, 2017
I made a firm decision/ agreement with myself last night that I definitely want to pursue getting rid of the cat I've been fostering. I'm looking forward to it. I feel like I've done a great service feeding it and rescuing it as a lost stray baby kitten in the first place. To be honest, I just don't like the way it poops all over my flower beds outside, and I don't want an indoor cat. and I don't like having to chase away all the neighborhood cats from my porch. feeding the raccoons etc. I don't particularly like the idea of it killing any birds in my yard next spring/summer. or the way it jumps up after bugs in my garden which equals breaking off flowers next year.
I have no emotional attachment to it. it's lovely and nice to pet a cat and talk to it and all that, play with it, sure. but the cat makes me feel like a food box. I'm all for pet ownership and I'm all for all you guys with pets, absolutely. If I had a family and we added a dog or cat, great! but single me is not up for it. I'm great with pets, they love me when I pet and play with them. I pet and massage with little pressure points and they always love my attention. true. and I'm patient and pay attention to them being ready to move on etc..
But if I'm honest, I like to stay busy and focused and un distracted around this place. when I stop to pick up the cat or pet the cat or sit with the cat, I think I basically feel even more alone. I dunno maybe keeping busy helps me feel less lonely or not thinking about it. ha... but loving on a cat doesn't do it for me, I want to pet and love and play with a real person. I'll probably want to fill that empty space before getting any more pets. fish not included, I'm totally getting some fish in the next couple years. truck paid off first and floors in this old house stabilized etc.