Thursday, July 18, 2019

summer fun.....


is it Thursday...

I showed up at the gym today and started reading the workout for Wednesday....oops. that's summer mindset for ya. success! :)

I had a great morning getting things done outside like mowing and watering, big breakfast, and watched some videos on youtube. right before lunch, I came inside and checked my messages and found one from this guy who met at crossfit a year ago while he was there for a 3 month trial, then he quite coming. ha anyway, he's an associate pastor at my church and has been taking grad school seminary classes and sends me his papers for proofreading. I enjoy doing it and helping him out.  Anyway, I forgot a week and a half ago, he sent me his 19 page final project paper and was needing it by Friday, tomorrow. ha! with all my travel and other stuff, I'd completely let it slip my mind. So I started reading it fast and had all my suggestions for the first 2/3 off within and hour, and then within less than an hour the rest of it... then lunch!  after lunch I started to get into my bedroom for some clean out!
While I was at the hotel last weekend, I thought about how nice the big empty room felt and why my room couldn't be like that! ( I actually was in a suite, a free upgrade even though I'd paid the same convention rate as my club members, so it was a nice big king bed and then a couch and table and etc...  I even posted a comment on facebook about how the King mattress was so wide that I felt like I was facing the wrong direction #singlelife..... sigh) anyway, so today I took everything off the dressers, many pictures and such off the walls.  everything off the floor, stacks of things out of the room, magazines, bookes, framed stuff... out out out.  I do have some things laying on one half of my (queen) bed that I'm going to go in a minute and put away. but otherwise it's nice a cleared out. ahhhh...  tomorrow I'll dust all and vaccuum and get more nitty gritty like maybe even change the bedsheets, gasp!   best-selling author and Psychologist Dr. Jordan Peterson says something along the lines of cleaning up your room first as a beginning to get order into your life and toward your goals.  So, it's a start, eh?  Of course, my whole process is a deconstruct/reconstruct sort of thing, so everything I took out of the room is out here in the main room all over the tables and couches and floor, with all my clean laundry in stacks and piles in here and my unpacked clothes from last weekend yadda yadda....  I'll be doing the kichen next tomorrow, then this weekend tackle all the stuff in here. You'd be surprised at how just putting away clothes will pick up the place. ;)
this afternoon i went to the 4pm crossfit class. I decided to stay in it for another month instead of taking off the hot part of summer.  thing is, I've made better gains here than the last place and I don't want to lose the gains I've made by taking off time.  seriously just one week and I feel flabbed out again. ha  the guy I mentioned before showed up for the 5pm class. damn shirtless wonder. Anyway, on my way out I was refilling my water bottle at the water cooler and as I turned away from it he was standing there sort of waiting and I looked at his face to see if he'd look my way so i could say hello, but he pretty much decidedly kept looking away as to not say anyway. ha! that prick!! ha ha...  either he's getting an unwelcome vibe from me or he's just the gym type of guy that only talks to the other big gym guys.  But when I walked in the door coming home, I decided that no, he is a shy little bird inside. and I'm going to be more direct and just go in for the hello what is your name etc etc... It doesn't have to mean anything, it's just the social type of human community norms we live in. I think some people forget how to talk face to face to people or even strangers. It's cool, I'll give them opportunity no worries.
tonight i watched a bit of netflix, Blown Away.... about a glass blowing contest. it's not very well edited or produced, more of a throw tegether with like half hour episodes, meanwhile they try to get us invested in the lives of the contestents with brief meaningless details. blah blah.... too bad they can't be like British Bake Off, less drama and more actual technique and art to what they;re doing. I watched 2 epis. and will watch some more of course.  watering the yard tonight and getting things done before bed. hope y'all are enjoying summer.  I should be in S and Bs pool this Saturday and we're going out to dinner Friday night to catch up.  THis weekend I'm sort of busy with a 2 day OSFA convention. but it's only Saturday night and then all day Sunday ( I didn't pay for any of the trainging course all day Saturday day.). and sadly no that is not Oklahoma Stage Firefighters Association.  It's a florist thing. ha

where's the beach..........


Wednesday, July 17, 2019

busy summer, not much progress


what a busy summer. I'm coming up for breath for a second, some room to breathe and take some time to blog a little bit. My summer classes are about over, just next week left. THere is one last paper due in my English 1 class and 2 unit assessment essays in my online humanities course.. blah blah. but nothing for the next 3 days! woot!! I've been teaching Mon and Wed morning classes this June and July. three weeks ago I was in AR and in Eureka Springs for a wedding, two weeks ago I went to Independence MO for a garden club regional meeting and garden tours. and then last Wednesday I flew to Madison WI for a garden club National meeting. I flew in Wednesday night late, arriving at 11:45 and then to the hotel after midnight. I had to be at the convention hotel to make a 9 am bus. I used Uber for the first time, ha! I got a ride to a cheaper hotel just south of Middleton, since I was only doing a quick overnight stay. and then I ubered to the convention hotel Thursday morning and stayed there the rest of the weekend. The funny thing is I got the same driver both times. A man named Mitchell who work on the ground crew and then picked up anyone wanting a ride on his way home from work. And then since he lived in Middleton, I guess he was up and found me the next morning wanting a quick ride. ANyway, I went a day early so that I could take part in the excursion tour to Taliesin near Madison. What a great experience to see the home, work space, and school of Frank Lloyd Wright. quite something! Thursday night everyone gathered for a plant auction. then we were all up for breakfast Friday by 6 or 630 and then on the busses by 7am for 4 garden tours. after arriving back to the hotel Friday afternoon, I got a free hotel shuttle back to the airport and rented a car for the rest of the weekend. It remained parked all day Saturday since we were on bus tours again, resting back in the hotel afterwards, and then a banquet and meeting Saturday. However, Sunday morning everyone was loading up to go back home and my flight didn't leave until 5pm, so I had planned to drive around visiting all the "open garden" tours in the area. that means gardens by people in the area but who weren't on the official convention tour. Anyway, I saw some very nice ones and took lots of pictures. Many of the ones I visited were on the NE side Windsor and De Forest. and I ate lunch at a wonderful Norse restaurant in DeForest. downtown for one more garden and then by 230 I was headed back to the airport to return my GMC Canyon pickup.
        I sat in the airport grading papers and left by 5 to Detroit, bought a quick sandwich for dinner at the airport and then next plane, then arrived in OKC at 9:45pm. ZZZZZzzz I was beat. the great thing is I got all my essays graded on the plane on the way home, success! While in MO a few weeks ago, one thing I saw in a garden was this greenhouse/garden shed made out of old wooden framed windows from old houses. It inspired me to try and do the same and I put my idea out on facebook. Sure enough, last weekend I received a link from one friend, and then from another friend.. people selling old windows. ha! one was from an old house in OKC for $25 each so I got 4 of those. then another one near Chickasha had some for $5 each.... I tried to message and arrange all that while in WI last weekend. So, Monday after class.. I made it to a house in OKC nice area by 12 and bought 4 15 paned windows. a start! went home for lunch and then start driving down south to Chickasha, but what turned out to be Verden OK west of Ch. there I got four 12-paned windows and four 8 paned windows... collecting my materials. Tuesday I was off work and graded online most of the day to catch up from time missed while out of town. This morning I was in class wrapping up instruction for the last paper coming in next week. this afternoon I work online a bit and then began cleaning up my room. While staying at the hotel last week, I wondered how I could get the clean empty hotel feel to my bedroom. ha! this means put things away and get rid of things and de-clutter etc etc etc.. I'm going to give it a go this week, for real. oh, and this afternoon I got a message from a long time high school friend who said she has a bunch of old windows in our home town on her property $10 each. So I may go by there tomorrow and see what I can find that will work. As a start, I'm getting windows that are in sets and same size, to help the puzzle pieces come together when I start on the actual project...
      I'm still going to crossfit... I quit the one I've been going to for almost 2 year on June 15th and I paid June 18th for a month at the new one. I really like the new one and see gains each week I've been. they have everything planned and programmed and it's a lot closer. The best way I can put it is "they treat you like an adult"... ;) . it's also only less than a mile away from my house. score! although I was paying $115 a month at the last place and the new one is $165 a month. but since I go 5 times a week, that's like $8 a day for a guided trained work out. I love it other than the hot weather and no AC in the gym which is like a crossfit thing. I have to say something about one of the guys that works out there and who I haven't met yet, if ever. he has that classic roman nose face? is it called that? have you ever seen the erotic cartoons of Julius? the artist pretty much draws every guy's the exact same face, very masculine heavy browed long nose oval faced type of guy? you'd have to see it, but anyway, this one guy at the new gym looks exactly like one of those guys. And I wasn't even looking or noticing but he has a short haired nice abs body with nice big round soft nipples ( all the guys take the shirts off at the gym apparently) swoon..... ha ha.
        I have not yet communicated in writing yet with my parents about being open honest and more authentic with them about my life and such. It was a goal after my last birthday, and I had this nicely planned idea of writing a letter and putting it in the mail Wednesday before I left on my trip so that I'd be out of town when they received it etc etc.. however, I never got it written. I tried to write it down some, but it's harder than I thought to so carefully put everything in words. BUt I'll get it done this summer definitely. It's getting ridiculous and I need to get it all out there before my folks get too old to benefit and be patient and understand it all... I'm guessing... ha. It's not like it's going to make any changes in my life or how I'm living but I think it will give them a better understanding of me, I don't want it to be some un asked mystery of how I live or what I'm doing etc..
         BTW, I had planned to quite the new crossfit and take a few weeks off during the heat of summer. UGH UGH UGH.. but I'm enjoying it so much and the progress, I'm kind of thinking of just sticking around and continuing it... I had planned to take time off and then decide which gym I wanted to go back to. But I've already decided I like the new ones steps above the other one!!! so I'll decide to morrow since that's when the next month is due. OH!! hope everyone is having a great summer.

Wednesday, June 19, 2019

Sumer loving..

had me a blast? ...  so far just working away my summer here.  I taught a 3 credit hour course in 9 during the 2 weeks following the end of the semester. and then 2 weeks ago I started my summer class on Monday and Wednesday mornings. 8 - 10:30.  it's a class full of good students, I'm enjoying it. I'm also doing an online mythology course, so there is that to check an grade now and then throughout the week while at home.  I spend most mornings in my yard on the days I'm not teaching.  Nothing much new is going on at the moments much unlike previous summers.  I am also working on two committees that pay 1 credit hour worth for reading and rating student artifacts for competency for the college. that is an extra $750 x 2.... woot.  My summer classes will end the last week of July and then I'll teach another 3 credit hour course during the following 2 weeks.
basically I plan to save up the extra $$ for some home repair, wooden floors in here or the kitchen, countertops? a new roof? we'll see what happens...
I began a new crossfit gym this week.  I gave my thirty day notice at the other one I've been going to for 2 years now.  I was losing some confidence in the coaches there and the way it was run. and I have a few friends who go to this one less than a mile from my house, so??  why not.  actually I like taking a month off in the summer when it gets super how like July.  So this year my plan was to feign I was taking some time off from my old gym, and then meanwhile pay for a month at this new one, then I'll take some time off halfway through July until school starts and then decide which one I want to continue at.  the new one is $50 more a month! however, it might be worth it. the coaches are way more involved and interactive, and the programs for workouts seem to have more plan and purpose, from what I've seen in the first few days anyway.. still loving it, going 5 days a week etc..
I haven't written a letter to my folks yet, but I'm completely prepared to.  My goal is to be short and sweet about it, display the forthright honesty which is my goal, and that is all.  I don't want to insinuate any blame whatsoever or anything done wrong.  My major goal is that they know I have no secret life or am I dating anyone or have I dated anyone etc... just single me doing the best I can and that's that.  I've also decided not to expect too much of anything in change in any major way. But at least we'll have an open an honest understanding. folks first, then the sibs eventually I suppose. I just want to get it out there but I don't want a long conversation or have to explain blah blah blah. we'll see.
I cancelled my trip to Denver with my Austin bud and his husband. I had the outfits planned and everything! ;)... However, I'm doing so much at work AND will be involved in a hiring committee also at the end of the summer ( which I actually love doing and is volunteer). The thing is I was going to play hookey from the last day of classes on a Wednesday and leaver for CO after class Monday.  but now with the hiring committee planning meetings, it might be hard to say I'll be out of town Tuesday or Wednesday if they want to meet. I dunno, what pushed me to decided was an article I shared with my Austin bud about bible translations into German that translated the homosexual part of the bible in a way that meant sleeping with boys.?? anyway, just a random article... and he got back to me with a statement about being firm in his faith no matter some rich white Christian men have to say about it or have done in the history of it all.... He's smarted and better than that, and regardless of politics - it wasn't offensive but just such a rote statement and a bit too "woke."   lost a bit of respect when people don't have actual opinions without throwing political ideology in my face. Anyway, it made me reconsider the trip and whether I should spend a week with the two of them. Plus I was already thinking the trip wouldn't work with my summer in the first place.  I was extremely tempted to write back that I was spending my week with all my white rich Christian friends instead just to piss him off, but I refrained.  He texted me a few days later with "i hope it isn't anything i did/said" and assured no it was all WORK related.  and that made me feel sad and dishonest.  So now I plan to just write it all down in a letter which he always appreciates and respects, sharing real feelings, because of his recovery he's all about openess and honesty.  And I'll have to explain that I want to see each other as people, not be lumped into some group or another , which I don't know if that's his Austin way, or just the way of people during these bipartisan times. but seeing one's faith as an immediate link to everything on the RIGHT or one's sexuality as an immediate identity of the LEFT etc..  I'm about individuals, people!  not tribes and groups.
well, anyway, I'm currently reading a book by Andrew Yang about Universal Basic Income and I'm all about it. so figure that one out.  My buddy in AR and I are reading it together and wil discuss the first half next at the end of the month. ( i had one sent to his house on Amazon when I ordered mine and when he texted me about reading it, he had no idea how he got it, and eventually he figured it out that I had it sent to him since I told him I was reading the same book.  turns out he had the book in his cart and was thinking about buying it, but I got there first! ha) 
Also, get this.... one of my students this summer is gay and wrote his first paper about being a Christian AND gay and how his parents kicked him out when he told them, then when he broke up with his boyfriend they let him move back in blah blah.. anyway, he was like totally honest about the whole thing in his paper, and his next paper is on religious freedom so that should be interesting. :)  AND another student , who is in my Myth class online, sent me an email about the similiarities of the myths and the bible and asked me why did the bible become a religion and not a myth like the stuff in class? wow that's a big ask, where do I start? ha
I'm excited to have the next 2 days free. Saturday morning I'll be driving up to AR to spend time with T all day, mainly in town and visit Crystal Bridges museum, and then the reason I'm going is a wedding Sunday. the daughter of a fellow English major from college who works now at our alma mater and also her sister and family will be at the wedding, they are the family i stayed with in Dakar 10(?) years ago while travelling around after my Kabbuulll teaching gig.